It is Thursday and I dread tomorrow. Fridays, bring back too many memories of the Friday James died. It is as though that day plays out in my mind. Every detail until James took that last breath. I wish this would stop, but I am still so used to that schedule. I am trying to break this, but after two years...it is not an easy thing to do.
I have to be very honest and say that God has shown me much mercy in my grief. He has provided laughter when I thought I would never smile again! This happened at James's funeral when one man, Tom Jones, spoke of James. Tom, recalled that when James was in college, James and his classmates had to choose a lemon and carry it around until they could recognize their lemon from any other lemon. James, carried his lemon to work and introduced it to all! Tom said, James marched into the bosses office (George) and when he came out, Tom asked James what George said to him. James replied, "He said he was going to fire me and the lemon!" Everyone busted out laughing at this memory. I too, remember that lemon! James, asked me to kiss the stupid thing before we went to bed one night! I declined! In fact, I had to go buy several lemons so James could see if he could recognize that one...he did!
There have been moments of rest from my sorrow. I know this is God being faithful. I certainly recognize His peace when it falls upon me too. What a sweet rest this is from my current situation. My heart just aches to see James and yet, my mind knows James is healed now and no longer suffering. I find peace in knowing James is healed and in the presence of the Lord!
Gotta go
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